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"Let me occupy your mind as you do mind"

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(isnt this cool?!)

Gotye- Hearts a Mess

Pick apart
The pieces of your heart
And let me peer inside
Let me in
Where only your thoughts have been
Let me occupy your mind
As you do mine

You have lost
(Too much love)
To fear, doubt and distrust
(It’s not enough)
You just threw away the key
(To your heart)

You don’t get burned
(’Cause nothing gets through)
It makes it easier
(Easier on you)
But that much more difficult for me
To make you see…

Love ain’t fair
So there you are
My love

Your heart’s a mess
You won’t admit to it
It makes no sense
But I’m desperate to connect
And you, you can’t live like this

Your heart’s a mess
You won’t admit to it
It makes no sense
But I’m desperate to connect
And you, you can’t live like this

Your heart’s a mess
You won’t admit to it
It makes no sense
But I’m desperate to connect
And you, you can’t live like this

Love ain’t safe
You won’t get hurt if you stay chaste
So you can wait
But I don’t wanna waste my love

Anyways yayyy this is the last blog ! I honestly dont think this song is very spiritual but it does talk about love and this is seen throughout all religions. And as humans we long for you know that relationship were very "desperate to connect" whether it be to another person or to a deity, we all long to have a meaningful relationship.

So since ^ that was really short I just wanted to do a little reflection about this year! It's been great and I've really really enjoyed the class and it has introduced me to blogging. I just saw my first blog and i remember how I really didnt want to do this but now I've grown to actually like it so I made my own :]. Its really just serving as a motivator to continue drawing so Im putting my artwork up and stuff and it's also going to just help me get into the habit of recording memorable moments that are to come and to force me to take more pictures (I'm going to take up photography and its on my to do list) So I just wanted to thank you, Mr. Smart, for being such a great teacher this year; I really got a lot from your class.

** and of course congratulations on your baby! Lily Raven Smart is a great name :]
Hope you and Mrs. Smart are doing well with everything!

Are we in a Moral Crisis?

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The article we read in class talked about how students lie cheat and steal. This obviously isn't anything new it's been going on for awhile but I do think that the pressure to lie more has definitely increased. We live in a country where everything is so competitive especially getting into college. I feel like because of this competitiveness students are pushed to whatever they can just to pass an exam or complete homework even if it means copying from someone else. What was really surprising was that Universities/schools that were of a certain religion (like a catholic school) those students cheated more. Which was really weird just because you know I guess it's just bit ironic that they emphasize ethics and morals and it seems like since its being enforced so heavily students just want to rebel and act out more than students who attend  non religious schools.

Polygamy

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I have a problem with Polygamy. I feel like it's "wrong" because of what I've been brought up to think. Since I'm Christian I'm brought up to thing that marriage is suppose to between one man and one women.
So the idea of a man seeking various wives seems to miss the spiritual bond that is created when married. I feel like Polygamy only serves for physical gratification ( for the man in the relationship) and the fact that he can expand his family and for the women in the relationship I feel like their only seeking out financial stability. Other than that I honestly cannot fathom how everyone can be so content, and can overcome their jealousy. But when I keep thinking about this open relationship I realize that no one is being deceived, those who claim to be in polygamist relationships are content, and if the children are being raised in a happy and safe environment then what's the problem? I still feel like the purpose of a marriage is to find that one person that is meant for you; you don't need three people to make up your ideal and desired spouse. I also feel like polygamy depicts women in a demeaning manner just because you don't a wife with more than one husband..

Life After Death

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At one point three of my classes  (World Religions, English, and Sociology) were all talking about Heaven. I never realized how our society incorporated the idea of an after life in our movies, mannerisms, and well our culture as a whole. In Sociology we watched a documentary called "Heaven; where is it and how do we get there?" In the documentary Barbara  Walters interviews Pastors, leaders from the Muslim faith, authors, and people who have said to have seen Heaven when surviving near death experiences. What was really interesting is to see how most people wanted to know what they were going to do with their time or if they were going to eat, sleep, if their cat or dog was going to be there, and finally how they were going to look in Heaven.

Okay I personally think Heaven is to complicated of a concept for the human brain to understand. I also feel like if hypothetically someone knew exactly what Heaven was and told someone one no animals aren't going to heaven or you actually don't eat or indulge in any world like pleasures because you are no longer part of the world, and you don't identify with your physical appearance, people wouldn't accept it. We're so wrapped in the idea that Heaven is a place where you can eat and never get fat, where you'll always be young, all this just seems so superficial, I think its more than that. But who am I to say what Heaven is or isn't  I'm just like everyone else molding the concept of Heaven to my liking.

Life is Short

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In Mrs. Smarts class we read an article about how when most people age they feel as if time is escaping them..time goes by faster..but why? Well in the article it goes on to say that our first memories are much like "novel" memories..because we are experiencing those sensations, that environment, that event for the very first time.

So my very first memory is anything but exciting..it's actually quite simple..I remember climbing stairs..stairs that seemed to go on forever and ever until getting to the very top and seeing a door with missing numbers. When it opens flashes of green (which i assume to be the color of the walls in my grandparents apartment in el salvador) appear and then I remember the smell of pupusas (my favorite food..besides sushi.. its basically a tortilla like food with beans and melted cheese put together..simple..but tastes amazing)

Thats my first memory..but that memory seems to go on and on and on..because it was one of my firsts..now as i have gotten older time does seem to be slipping by. This last year has been the fastest year ever..its because our lives (as students) is so routine..we've already experienced going to school, doing homework, hanging out with the same people, going to the mall, etc that its has become routine and we no longer remember these events as we did our first encounters to past events...its sad but because of this, time/life seems shorter.. and it makes me realize something thats obvious..but life is valuable.. and its frustrating to think that these past 17 years haven't felt like years at all..so time is relative..time is an illusion .. time is confusing and frustrating..this blog is just my sentiments towards time going by to fast and plea to time just saying slow down!..i feel like i wont enjoy my life at this rate..and its just another factor that has pushed me towards meditation (since it focuses on the moment and enjoying that singular moment)..


*a video in the article..i thought it was pretty cool

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Wars are poor chisels for carving out peaceful tomorrows

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Is war always bad?

Yes!

War is a never ending cycle. Those who win acquire more power thus becoming targets for other wars and those who lose may not have enough power but eventually plan on getting revenge and creating a new war to get back what was theirs. Although the outcomes of war may not have been bad...
like..defeating the Holocaust..or the creation of Penicillin..and how war aids the economy, war itself is more than bad its evil. War will always take away innocent lives and establish new conflicts.. because with war nothing is ever really settled. War can't be the answer to the problems we can't immediately solve with diplomacy... are we just incompetent of finding ways to solve disputes without immediately considering war as an option or are we really just that barbaric?

"Hijab is Freedom!"

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The Hijab is something I've seen since I was very little ... I never really understood the purpose of a Hijab until well..this year.. and it definitely gave me a completely different perspective on why women wear hijabs. I always assumed that women were forced into wearing hijabs or were completely submissive to the men in their lives and thought that's what they were suppose to do.. but I never thought that a hijab was something that could be classified as "liberating" when talking about how women perceive themselves. A hijab is represents the respect women have for their appearance and what they really want men to take notice in, their personality. This promotes the idea of self worth and self esteem not through appearance but through their inner beauty. This makes me question why some schools dont allow students to wear hijabs, I find that their purpose teaches a valuable lesson..

Reflecting on the Art of Silence

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I havent been keeping up with these blogs, its not that i dont want its just that i never get around to it. So to get me back on track I decided to write about something I've always wanted to do and reflect on something never really noticed.

Something I've always wanted to do:
Meditate

I have meditated before but I've never really been committed to doing so.. as in I've never made meditating a part of my routine. I feel that meditation is more than  just a method of distressing oneself but it really makes you face yourself and thats something that we often runaway  from, ourselves. I think that as time goes on individuals develop subconscious problems, problems they will never solve because they are so wrapped up in the world, never bothering to asses themselves and find out whats really going. Meditation contributes to self enlightenment, self development, and discovering self worth, which is something I would hope most of us would  strive to discover. Its a task that can help one understand oneself better, but learn how to cherish the moment ( with just concentration on ones breathing and not paying attention to other thoughts that may come across) and truly understand the effects it has on someone. I definitely don't think its useless because if people meditated more i feel that as a whole humans would be much more satisfied with themselves because through meditation they will have learned to understand themselves .

Something I never realized: 
How people avoid silence In our society

it seems as if we're running away from silence as if it were unacceptable because we're so use to the upbeat pace of our lives that when surrounded by silence..makes us feel what.. unaccomplished? useless? awkward?  I have no idea why that would be but just thinking about my day i haven't had moment of silence. I always mange to either  listen to music turn on the t.v. even if I'm alone..just so i wouldn't be surrounded by silence. I guess silence can be inferred as one being the most vulnerable with themselves since one has nothing to go to but concentrate on their thoughts..so i guess thats why meditation is so effective because youre so vulnerable with yourself..

Expectations vs Reality

 

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* i love 500 days of Summer : ]

So I've come to the conclusion that my personal expectations will never be fulfilled. Senior year is a perfect example of my expectations having yet to be met.  How did I envision my senior year? Relaxing, hanging out with friends, the only thing to worry about would be college apps, my parents and I would have a better relationship since grades wouldn't be held at such a high standard, and all my classes would be pretty easy...but instead, reality set in..and this has been the most stressful year of high school. All these expectations and ideals have brought me nothing but disappointment..and it made me realize that Buddhist are in the right. The art of detaching ones self from goals and earthly possessions will bring nothing BUT happiness. People are so dependent and feel like if they don't obtain what they want or achieve what they set out to do they will be miserable. Detachment is when you're okay with getting what you want and you're okay when you dont; you acknowledge that wont make you happy and you'll be fine without.